Haiz... :( What an unhappy family I have... My 2nd elder brother said that my mum is biased when my mum asked him to go back to his room to sleep not to sleep in her room. Perhaps my mum voice was a bit loud, but my mum only asked him to keep the clothes that were hung drying in my room yet he told mum his hand was injured could not keep the bamboo sticks. And this triggered the quarrel. And this was how the biased came our from my brother mouth.

Yesterday, the Court furniture company came to my house and asked for payment owe by my 2nd elder brother and my mum actually paid 200 bucks for him. Then got to know the sum was more than 200 and was being owing since 2007. My mum and dad have been clearing the debt for my brother ample times. But when he will really learn his lesson??? Nobody knows. And my mum actually so heartache that he can say that mum was biased? Can't imagine that my mum's heart is bleeding... My dad asked him how much exactly he was owing and he said it's appro. $30k. I really can't imagine why he can owe so much. Furthermore, he still borrow money from relative, exculding the amount he owe me, my sister and my parents. How come an adult 29 year old could have done this?????

This morning my dad has just given him $4k to settle part of the debt first. Or is it my dad was biased that my eldest brother renovation cost has still been owing but didn't hear that my dad will want to clear for my eldest brother? Or is it my eldest brother always quarrel with my dad so he feel that my eldest brother is disobedient? And my mum actually said cannot let my eldest brother know that dad is clearing the debt for my 2nd elder brother... So many questions in my head... Why is my family becoming like that...

On the way to work this morning, my dad called my eldest brother and in their conversation end up quarrelling again. After the call, my dad asked whether can he sack by eldest brother? I replied if he did something wrong in his work then possible. I really wonder why why why my family has become so unpleasant... Is it really when a person grow up, he/she will be having more 烦恼? And eventually caused him/her to be unhappy?

My sister and I really hope we can quickly move out from the house... I hope I can have my own house too. But I don't have that much money and if buying HDB flat must be with my wife to be, which I don't even have a girl friend yet. (I don't mean I am so desperate want to have a girl friend but only state that I am single now so I can't buy the HDB flat.)

To summarise, I am so sad to see my family becoming like that...